What could you do in two years?

Expectations 2012 // moments before our record release show

Somewhere in the end of summer 2009 the third and the second person on the polaroid photo above were quite enthusiastic about the idea of forming a new band. That would be a positive hardcore band. The second person had been playing the drums with another band and that was what he was going to do in the new one. The other one (let's say me) was fascinated by the idea to start playing the bass. Because it's cool, nobody gives a damn about it and he can slack a lot and party on stage. So three more people become enthusiastic about this idea too and this is pretty much how Expectations were born.

More than two years later this is what we have become. We've made almost as much shows (~20) as rehearsals (~30) and despite the fact according to our 'local standards' we're considered a quite active band we surely could have done better. In January we went to Romania to record seven of our songs with our great friend Marius Costache who also shot that video you saw. And boy he did great job recording our debut. After designing/printing/recording in a crazy rush this is the result.

This beautiful image is the front cover of our self-released digipack and the super cool artwork was shot and designed by our mates at RUBBER Gallery. So quit reading this and go to Bandcamp to hear our cursed music. If you like the two songs uploaded there go get the album for 5 bucks.


On Monday we're playing Belgrade, Serbia and in the middle of April we'll be in Varna and Plovdiv, Bulgaria. Our second mini Balkan tour got cancelled so if you want to see us around don't be a stranger and drop us a line as we'll be surely booking a new one.

P.S. We actually never played positive hardcore. We haven't even tried.

A new beginning

Emerging Patterns // 2012

It's been a while since I last played with a new band and in the end of March this is going to happen. I've been mentioning Emerging Patterns as an active side project for quite a long time now and finally I got the chance to present it live. Actually it will happen twice in a week time during two really nice shows in Sofia. If I am to put our music in words it is a cool combination of industrial, dark ambient and noise. It has nice deep drones, dark and rusty soundscapes but quite often the tracks climax into heavy rhythmic structures which is not a surprise since the other person behind the project is Todor Dimitrov, a member of Psychopatia Sexualis (and a project called Suicide Fetish which was one of my favorite things to release when I was running the probably already forgotten netlabel ODP). Here . Below is a track from our first album which we are currently trying to get published. There are also the two posters for the upcoming shows. If you are around join some of the parties, it's going to be super cool.

Emerging Patterns - Process by Mytrip

A new place for me

When I look back at the Mytrip past shows list I see a bunch of clubs, galleries, basements, even flats but all of them (w/ once exception) are located in Sofia. For the last four years since I started playing live w/ this project of mine I was able to perform quite a lot and quite often (especially considering the music I am playing, the country I live in and the fact it's not something you usually get paid for ). Yeah, I've tried to play outside Sofia. I've been struggling to play in Plovdiv, been considering Varna too. But each time I get the 'Don't bother', 'No one will show up', 'You won't get paid' answer, if I get an answer at all.

However 2012 has been pretty awesome so far and this Saturday if everything goes smooth Mytrip music will be performed in another place. This will happen in Shoumen, a city in North Eastern Bulgaria which I've only passed by while travelling somewhere else. A friend who's living there is also publishing my upcoming split w/ EUS from Costa Rica through his label Abandonment. So it will be two shows in a row that day + a tape promo. Will get back to that later, when its already a history.

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Pre-order Mytrip | EUS split tape

[AB]TP-003 Mytrip /Bulgaria/ & EUS /Costa Rica/ - Split (2012)
dark ambient / drone
C60 / Ltd. 44

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Besides containing over fifty minutes of deep drones and dark soundscapes the third Abandonment tape proves boundaries and distance doesn't affect music. Physically Mytrip (Bulgaria) and EUS (Costa Rica) inhabit two remote parts of the world but in this split tape they are eating up the distance by transferring their presence in two sides that are far more reachable.



Release date: March 10, 2012
Artwork by Desislav Lilkov

If you are interested in reviewing the split please get in touch.

Mytrip @ facebook | bandcamp
EUS @ facebook | bandcamp

Not an excuse

The state of my brain after a harsh conversation, w/ someone I care about but hardly share any life philosophy with, is almost the same as the noise in my ears after a great show. That feeling of your shaken thoughts and emotions slowly and comfortably arranging in the same order they are supposed to be. After spending an hour or so covering a large variety of topics and subtopics (discussed almost subconsciously mostly in my head) from human cruelty, selfishness, beliefs, ideology and family norms one more time I am more than comfortable w/ everything that's going on in my head. I am not the social type of humyn but oh boy I do love observing. I am not a philanthropist but I find humyns inspiring in many ways. But not inspiration in that global sense, more like that kind of inspiration that can be put in 'what I should not be'.

'I just want to be a better man'

I've never explained the name of this blog. And it should not be a surprise it is a story tightly connected w/ music. Every each of us has some time on this Earth and I happen to know a person who sat down somewhere, at a specific point of his life, took a pen and wrote that nine simple words. He then sat in a car w/ me for half a day, we talked, we travelled, we saw places most of you haven't and will maybe never will. And he sang those words over the music the remaining 4 people in that very car played.

I mentioned that state of my thoughts and ideas arranged perfectly. But do you know what is better than the sense that you are comfortable w/ your way of thinking? To find something new that will make you even more satisfied w/ everything that's going on in your head. And these words did make me more accomplished.

'Being yourself is not an excuse for your actions'

Same person same background story. These words I've been chewing in my head for the last month and a half. This night in the context of the conversation they came to me again. And that tiny part of me who has been finding them difficult to swallow and accept until now finally gave up. Humyns are an inspiration and now I new thing inside of me to challenge. Soon.

// really into (all day long): wormrot - fix your broken mind

Music pirates have been castrated

I don't know why we should give a damn about ACTA or SOPA considering the fact there are pretty much no music pirates left. I spend the last few days trying to spread as much as possible the debut album of my let's say oldest band. It was released back in 2010 and we decided to keep it oldschool, selling copies only on shows and few stores in Sofia, Bulgaria (which I am pretty sure didn't sell a copy). When we released it, we were reviewed on the only two printed music magazines in Bulgaria, we made a cool promo show and from 100 copies printed we have around 20 now. In few months time we're about to record again and I decided to put the album on Bandcamp, set a 3€ price and get in touch with as many ezines as possible. And I did, a lot of people heard the album for a first time. Yes I consider uploading it so late a mistake you just cannot survive if you are not online. And if I were doing it for the sake of being 'oldschool' I guess I won't be writing this.

The Bulgarian online space is not a vast one. Few days passed and all important places were covered, the five song album hits over 1000 plays for less than 2 days and I decide to contact the beloved international blogs for sharing music.

"Our blog has the sole purpose of providing everyone with links to metal albums of all sorts."

Such statements are placed on most of them and I think, okay I am not uploading my album but sharing a Bandcamp link which contains the whole release for a ridiculous download price it's a way to provide everyone with a link to metal album, right? So far I am getting mails saying "Only mediafire links". Well this is pretty much not gonna happen because I really don't like the feeling of pissing in my own mouth. Once it was the coolest thing ever to find an album, to enjoy it and find it for free, then to share it with as many people as possible. Yeah you steal from the band, but in the same time you are working for them. Now music pirates don't have the balls to steal from you, all they do is make you commit a suicide. So SOPA or ACTA please don't bother signing anything because pirates have officially been castrated.

And for anyone that gives a damn here's a link not on mediafire but on Bandcamp, you can hear the album. Maybe is not that good to be stolen.

// currently into: ulaan khool - la catacomb

A freedom meter?

I'm not exactly sure how a simple conversation about are we doing a show or not turns into an analysis of my freedom. However I am sure it was a pretty lame one as it led to the conclusion I am 'chained'. If I gotta outline the background without going too much into details it was a talk about choices, priorities, the resulting emotions and every other possible outcome or income. I was able to look through the conversation again because it took place online (how cool is that) and was still not able to get the idea.

So at the bottom as usual is money. And the main point is how to structure the remaining pillars of your life. Assuming you are good at something (you believe you are good at something) and you decide to commit a part of your time to it. So now you have a hobby. At a point you reach a state when you witness let's say appreciation, interest or/and feedback towards your hobby from a third party. But you keep going the same old way. You don't want to spoil emotions and joy of a hobby by dedicating more time to it. The magic will disappear because you will HAVE to do it, you will be 'chained'. Or you are just scared you are not good enough? Then aren't you chained again to something far more inappropriate? I'd rather dare to choose my own chain. I am being way too figurative I know, I am not even pissed because someone tried to measure my freedom especially considering the fact he's not aware of his own.

Already 03:15 am and I entered far distant depths I can reach with my current need for sleep. A bit of what the fck for a first post, still I don't care. Let's say five years ago when I started my first blog (long time ago deleted and stored somewhere on my hdd) I wrote all the introductory stuff that is necessary to enter the world of blogging. I don't care anymore to introduce myself if you do google stuff.

I remember this night few weeks ago. It was January 21 and it was a Friday of a pretty busy week. I went to see the premiere of a play I contributed music to, I enjoyed it a lot, the audience also enjoyed it, all summed up - me satisfied. I spent some time with all the people who made the play happen, didn't go to party with them but decided to walk home. I usually remember such nights in extreme details (e.g. what music I was listening to, did I walk or took a bus). From this night I remember two things - a half passed walkway and the thought that I am free to do whatever I want and I am actually doing it.

// really into: catherine wheel - ursa major space station